i'm so freakin' emo now and i don't even know why.. i'm serious i've been crying for like the past hour.. :( was fixing some stuff and i came across not even my stuff but rache's old school stuff.. i know, it's a bunch of junk.. but back in fourth year we had to write "passports" during the first meeting of the week of our english class.. basically you put whatever.. you can draw or whatever.. but rache being rache she wrote down stuff about her life.. just like a diary but not so intimate.. anyway while reading it i started to cry.. for many reasons i can't even explain.. 4th year was a really rough year for us but tonight i wish i was back then.. i miss AC.. i miss Mrs. Eala.. i miss being good.. as in doing a good deed everyday.. being as nice as possible to everyone.. i miss the stress of high school.. and its carefreeness.. :( weird. coz i'm not having a sucky life.. nothing like that.. a lot of things are just not going my way.. not like how they always used to be before.. but i'm not regretting a single thing.. i don't know i just want to be young again.. i can't pinpoint why exactly.. *sigh* i just miss so many things.. i miss valle.. i miss having my parents bring me to places and fetch me afterwards.. i miss being close to wally.. i miss DLSU.. i miss receiving monthly checks.. weird as it may be even brye.. i miss eating as much as i want but not gain.. i miss being unbeatable.. i guess i miss the things i know i will never be able to revive.. sometimes i catch myself feeling empty.. weird i'm always on the go and all but i guess being in UE and not really being close close to anyone is an effect of it.. i like it in UE naman.. people are nice and all.. the people are really funny pa pero i don't even get to see my barkada this term.. mostly my fault coz i chose classes that will allow me to train everyday.. i guess UE in general makes me smile but not happy.. but academically i'm very much contented there.. i like the fact that i'm learning.. haha okay i'm gonna stop na, i'm really confusing now.. i guess i just need something for me to look forward to the next day..